Thursday, January 31, 2008

Britney Spears, other stuff

Britney Spears is really, really sick. I don't want to sound like Chris Crocker, but I hope the paparazzi are proud, you've almost killed this woman. While she isn't the most pleasant person in the world and brings a lot of it upon herself by showing up in areas where she can (and will) be photographed it's been blindingly obvious for some time that she has a serious psychological disorder. Bipolar people are at extremely high risk for suicide and their situations should be handled with extreme caution. If she kills herself, that's blood on the paparazzi's hands.

It's supposed to rain hard tonight, it probably won't be too cold, but it MIGHT be. I'm just saying....

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

John Edwards, headaches, and windy days

John Edwards ended his bid for the Presidency today. I've never really been political although I vote every year for every office (because it gives me the right to complain, and I like to complain) but after seeing the story of James Lowe, a Virginia coal miner who spent 50 years of his life unable to speak because he couldn't afford treatment for a medical problem I got hooked on Edwards' message of ending poverty, as much of an impossible dream as it may be I like chasing impossible dreams. They give me hope, and hope gives me a reason to live. I hope that the remaining candidates will carry that torch. Thanks, John & Elizabeth.

Yesterday I had the worst headache. More than likely because of been sick with a cold since Saturday. I went to bed at 8:30 and it felt like I was sleeping on a rock even though I have a feather pillow. I never want that to happen again.

It was apparently windy enough to nearly blow Jane over (read: windy enough to blow me over) in Texas yesterday. It seems that's on the way to North Carolina, yikes. :(

Monday, January 28, 2008

My personality test...

Like I blogged last night I took a personality test and came back an INFP, or Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving. This type makes up only 1% of the world's population. Even though it was an online test it pretty much described me to a tee.

Positive personal traits of an INFP that I have are that i'm creative, artistic, spiritual, deeply caring, highly passionate, empathy, I'm egalitarian, and like to think of myself as a good friend. I'm somewhat deep, I wouldn't necessarily call myself intelligent though.

Unfortunately I'm also very reserved and keep to myself, easily offended by criticism, somewhat eccentric, hate having my personal space invaded, very overbearing, a slave to my emotions and very hard on myself.

Relationship wise see here, that's very much me. Basically I see myself as a bow to a potential mate's arrow.

Apperently writing would be a good career for me but I'm dyslexic and don't have the greatest command of English so I'm not entirely sure about that. I certainly couldn't be a teacher, that's too demanding. Who knows.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

I think my sinuses are tennis balls...

Yea, it feels like I have a pair of tennis balls lodged in my head. I knew it was coming so I wasn't totally blindsided, a friend of mine had it and I knew I'd get it from being around them last week (I always do).

I went to CVS to get some medicine, Advil Cold & Sinus, and had to sign a contract because it contains pseudoephedrine which can obviously be used to make crystal meth which is considered a weapon of mass destruction in North Carolina. Some people think that's overkill, but I'm fine with it, meth labs can blow up and take out neighboring houses.

I haven't taken the medicine yet because the label freaked me out (there's a hidden page of warnings you can't see until you buy it) by saying do not take if you have a history of kidney problems, which I do. Nonetheless a lot of sleep should make me feel better.

My personality test lists me as an INFP. "Their tranquil, reserved exterior masks a passionate inner life: Healers care deeply about causes that interest them, and they often pursue those causes with selfless devotion." That sounds a lot like me, heh. Jane would probably agree, she said hospitality is my best feature. Though I realize I can be shockingly overbearing at times, people have told me that in the past, heh. I actually was listed 100% Feeling, 0% Thinking which is entirely true, I'm incredibly emotional and definitely a prisoner to my heart.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

New beginnings?

My stunningly beautiful e-wife Jane is leaving her job today. I guess that's akin to graduating high school in a way. While (most people) are glad to get out of what they consider to be a stressful environment at the same time you're losing daily contact with people you've grown to like and respect, which is hard. I went to school with the same core group of people for 13 years, I hated school, but leaving them behind was hard. The good thing is that we live in an age where you can contact a person simply by picking up a phone or pressing 'send'.

At any rate, I wish her good luck. I've only known her for 3 months, but we speak to one another a lot, well, that's an understatement, we speak more than most married couples. And from what I've learned I can genuinely say she's a kind, goodhearted, talented, and not to mention drop dead gorgeous individual who deserves only good things.

My new beginning starts when I find out what I was put on this earth to do. I'm a very affectionate person, and I love animals so maybe I'll try to become a zoologist. It's something I flirted with in my teen years but never chased. I'm also trying to gain weight, I'm very skinny. My goal weight is 170, I realize that's still shockingly low (my current weight is a frail 158.5 lbs) for a man of my height but I have a very high metabolism and can't see myself maintaining a much higher weight. Oh well, it's like I told Jane. We can only be who we are.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

We need heated roads

Why can't Charlotte do this? God knows we have enough sunlight, it's basically the only thing we have an excess of besides children named Conner. We need to start doing things ourselves anyway because the capital won't give us any funds.

Stanly County had 75 (yes, seventy-five) car accidents in a 90 minute period this morning. Stanly County had more wrecks than Mecklenburg County has ambulances. That could easily be Charlotte because people here think they're driving for Richard Childress every time they get behind the wheel of a car. I know, I'm one of them.

"Where will we get the money for this insanity?" you ask. That's simple, it will eventually pay for itself because the water can be used to heat buildings and it cuts down on road maintenance, most of Charlotte's roads are due to be fixed soon anyway (has anyone driven the outside lane of Monroe Road between Rama Road and East Meck High lately? Yeah.). Of course this will probably piss Duke Power off, but Duke Power has to live like everyone else and evolve or die.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Depression is not a fun place...

I'm sorry to anyone mentioned in this post who may be bothered by their inclusion, you all know I would never intentionally cause you any sort of discomfort...

I have clinical depression yet I can't tell anyone because I have trouble conveying my thoughts into physical words. I'm the type of person who could write a book but I use body gestures to express my thoughts to avoid speaking to people. Even simple things such as nodding my head instead of saying a simple "yes, please". Because of this people see me as cold and rude, things I never wanted to be seen as. I've been called an "emo" by people close to me, which hurts, even though it's not true because I never chose to be this way, certain things happened to me which made me this way. I don't enjoy anything anymore, I rarely smile and laugh even less. I get headaches, backaches and the weight seems to be melting off of my already willowy 6 foot 7 inch frame.

I'm teetotal so I won't look to alcohol to solve my problems. Being teetotal may be the only thing keeping me somewhat sane as it gives me something to live up to. I guess I view personal issues as a yard weed and alcohol as dirt. You can keep covering the weed with dirt but you aren't getting rid of it, you're only feeding it's root system and making it bigger, what happens when the day comes that your body can't haul enough dirt to cover it? Having had a mini breakdown I don't know if I could survive hitting rock bottom so I'd rather not test my luck. Heh, I never claimed to be a philosopher.

I need somewhere to point myself, somewhere to focus my energy into something positive. I recently freed myself (with the help of two amazing people) from a fantasy I was living in. Upon cutting the binds of that fantasy I felt overcome by a strange since of freedom, yet I feel lost. I want one of the people to know that you didn't hurt me, you've never caused me any harm, your friendship is a blessing to me and if you're feeling down over this don't. You're exceptional and I never, ever want you to forget that.

I hear flax seed can help you gain weight and it helps with depression. I'll talk to a doctor first though.

Yea...I feel a little better now.

Saturday, January 19, 2008


Actual snow and not ice this time, I took two crappy pictures of it.

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As you can see my drought afflicted yard needs any kind of moisture.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Uptown Knights Stadium

The City said ok to a new uptown baseball stadium for the Knights in Third Ward which has been designed to seat 10,000. Info/Renders here.

This should have been done years ago but the plan has been blocked by a "concerned taxpayer" who just so happens to want to buy a Major League team. That would be peachy if Charlotte could support it's current teams but it can barely do that. The Panthers, easily the the popular of the Charlotte teams, often struggle to sell out unless they're having a rare spectacular season. The Bobcats only sell out when a big name player is in town, the hated Hornets no longer produce much of a buzz due to a justified inability to hate Katrina-ravaged New Orleans. Do you really think a Tuesday night affair pitting a Charlotte team against the Kansas City Royals, Tampa Bay Rays or anyone not called the Braves, Yankees, Mets, Cubs, or Red Sox would even draw a 5-figure crowd? I'm not regurgitating some line from the Observer, but it wouldn't. Most of Charlotte's new population only has one connection to the city, that they live here. They don't care about Charlotte's teams unless they start winning. Also, the native population and transplants that do care about Charlotte sports teams would have reservations about supporting a relocated team because they know first hand how terrible it feels to have a team you plowed hundreds and thousands of dollars into ripped away. On top of that you have to remember that a large portion of the population doesn't give a crap about sports in the first place.

Why do I rant on here if nobody reads it? Oh yea, Jane is in school so I can't heap buckets of praise on her right now and the ground is covered in ice and snow so I have to do other stuff.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Tom Cruise is scary

Gawker (search: Tom Cruise) has a video, which everyone has probably seen and I'm way late, of Tom Cruise talking about Scientology, it's pretty crazy. At one point he just starts laughing uncontrollably and then stops. It's pretty weird.

Oh, and McCrory won't win Governor. Not because he's from Charlotte but because the Republicans in Charlotte are pissed at him over light rail and will vote for the other Republicans, and as a Mecklenburger he NEEDS Charlotte to have a chance. Why did I post that?

We're gonna get an ice storm and I'm really, really skinny so that's not much fun for me!

Yea, that's all I have to post about. As you can see from my twitter I spend most of my time worshiping at the alter of Jane, and aside from that, to quote her royal highness, "I don't do much".

Monday, January 14, 2008

Janey's got a new job

And I'm very, very, very, very, very, extremely, inexplicably proud of her.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I'm getting a real estate license

...and it's probably an incredibly stupid decision given the current less than healthy state of the American housing market, although Charlotte's market has somehow found a way to saunter on it's obvious there are problems here too, seventy-seven homes in one Beazer developed starter home community have gone into foreclosure since August 2007. Yeah.

In all honesty it's probably my ergophobia that's making me shy away from a normal path of employment. I also think my oceans of useless knowledge about Mecklenburg County could be put to use as a real estate agent (how many other 23 year olds know that "Sharon Amity" signifies the unification of the Charlotte and Sharon townships?). God I'm a geek.

So, yea, that's what I'm going to do.

I played the lotto with (the splendiferous) Jane's numbers and didn't win anything, hopefully she'll have better luck.

Friday, January 11, 2008