So....

I played a DOS game called Crystal Caves, after Jane suggested it (I do anything Jane says, heh), and I am NOT good at it. I've never really been good at playing games involving the keyboard (I completely suck at first-person shooters) and I can't figure out how to make my controller work for DOS, or if it's even compatible with DOS in the first place. Anyway, I couldn't even beat the first level, I got killed by something which resembled a millipede.

I'll probably enjoy it once I learn to play it, it brought a massive smile to her face, which in turn brought one to mine. :) I love it when she's happy.

I'm still looking for direction though. My friend suggested I become a, heh, wedding consultant. Strangely, it seems like something I'd be good at. It would be like pouring a bucket of gasoline on the whole "Bobby is a big gayer" fire though. I guess I invite it upon myself by being different though, but I like being different, only dead fish go with the flow.

I saw 10,000 BC last week. It was good, one of the better movies I've seen in awhile (I don't watch many movies at all, I was forced into watching "Barbershop" which is what this movie is standing against). I won't review it though as that's not my forte.

Wow, looking for a job sucks

I'm too idealistic to find a job. I'm too idealistic to find anything for that matter. My morals always get in the way. I saw an ad for a production assistant for a local morning show and didn't even bother applying because I was sure I'd be turned down, and thinking that made me depressed again. I've been told by people (ok, a person) I care deeply about that I need to stop beating myself up, and I try...I swear I try but I always end up thinking about how useless I am again. I'm sorry if I constantly let you down by doing this to myself, I really am, you know upsetting you is the last thing I'd ever want to do.

I'm starting to think I'll never find anything. Not only am I strange but I get a lot of stares because of heightism everytime I apply for a job, not only that but I'm underweight and for some reason being skinny (whether or not you want to be) has become a crime. Yay for lesser known forms of discrimination! The heightism one (short people get it too) is actually as bad as racism since like your race, you didn't choose your height.

My personality test...

Like I blogged last night I took a personality test and came back an INFP, or Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving. This type makes up only 1% of the world's population. Even though it was an online test it pretty much described me to a tee.

Positive personal traits of an INFP that I have are that i'm creative, artistic, spiritual, deeply caring, highly passionate, empathy, I'm egalitarian, and like to think of myself as a good friend. I'm somewhat deep, I wouldn't necessarily call myself intelligent though.

Unfortunately I'm also very reserved and keep to myself, easily offended by criticism, somewhat eccentric, hate having my personal space invaded, very overbearing, a slave to my emotions and very hard on myself.

Relationship wise see here, that's very much me. Basically I see myself as a bow to a potential mate's arrow.

Apperently writing would be a good career for me but I'm dyslexic and don't have the greatest command of English so I'm not entirely sure about that. I certainly couldn't be a teacher, that's too demanding. Who knows.

New beginnings?

My stunningly beautiful e-wife Jane is leaving her job today. I guess that's akin to graduating high school in a way. While (most people) are glad to get out of what they consider to be a stressful environment at the same time you're losing daily contact with people you've grown to like and respect, which is hard. I went to school with the same core group of people for 13 years, I hated school, but leaving them behind was hard. The good thing is that we live in an age where you can contact a person simply by picking up a phone or pressing 'send'.

At any rate, I wish her good luck. I've only known her for 3 months, but we speak to one another a lot, well, that's an understatement, we speak more than most married couples. And from what I've learned I can genuinely say she's a kind, goodhearted, talented, and not to mention drop dead gorgeous individual who deserves only good things.

My new beginning starts when I find out what I was put on this earth to do. I'm a very affectionate person, and I love animals so maybe I'll try to become a zoologist. It's something I flirted with in my teen years but never chased. I'm also trying to gain weight, I'm very skinny. My goal weight is 170, I realize that's still shockingly low (my current weight is a frail 158.5 lbs) for a man of my height but I have a very high metabolism and can't see myself maintaining a much higher weight. Oh well, it's like I told Jane. We can only be who we are.

Janey's got a new job

And I'm very, very, very, very, very, extremely, inexplicably proud of her.